It was what she wanted.

(I had to grin, you mean 'callous'. 'Calloused' refers to chapped hands)

I don't think doing the paperwork will help much. Selling her assets and doing her tax return is all very personal - shows me too many corners of her life and feels like invading privacy.

I find it helps to remember sitting under the apple tree in her garden and shelling peas with her.